Posted by magnuswendler
I have not posted much in the last couple of months. It might, in part, be because I’ve found myself pondering things more deeply than necessary. Then again, maybe it is necessary since people such as Socrates have said that there is value in examining life. I’ve been questioning what goals I have for writing, if any. I have also questioned whether such goals are overshadowed sometimes by the concept of having viewers of posts and attempting to post things others would want to see/read.
There’s also that thought that things I post should simply come from me. They should just be what I’m drawn to write about as my daily life progresses. I can get lost in the logistics of how frequently to post, what to post that will be of interest to people to read, whether there’s anything at all of value in even writing anything and where does all this fit in as far as where I want to go in life. Then there are the days where I wonder if I have any clue of what I want or where I want to go, which only eats up time that can be used to get there of course.
All of this aside, a lot of what I ponder these days is related to nature vs. materialism you might say. When I use the word “materialism” I am thinking of things like fortune and fame; popularity and riches. It would be great to have that few grand available to buy this or that which would seemingly make my life easier such as a wheelchair accessible van as I need a wheelchair for mobility. I could go many more places much faster if I had such a vehicle. I can perfectly well get around the local community, given the mass transit that is available. But, like most things, it has its limitations. It has pros and cons. Time to travel takes longer usually, especially if used to get from one city to another. It’s easy enough to get in and out of a normal car and have someone put the wheelchair in the trunk though so it’s not totally necessary for either of the above options when traveling between cities. All that’s needed is someone with said car to be able to make it happen.
Focusing back on the writing of blog posts, though, I guess by nature I would mean the nature of human interaction or communication of ideas. The materialism aspect would be more on the numbers of viewers, the amount of comments and popularity overall of the blog. Communication is more of a goal for me from the start, as opposed to who views the blog or how much exposure it gets. That being said, a conversation requires multiple people and/or points of view which means a certain amount of exposure is required in order to achieve these people and points of view.
Then one day, not overly long ago, a book I received for Christmas last year and lent out to a friend from school was returned to me. That book F**k it by John C Parkins, which I remember feeling a lot lighter during and after reading it, made life seem a lot simpler. The concept behind the words in said book is to take life easy and not worry about things so much. It’s a lot more than that, as the book covers various things from God and anarchy, to relationships, to work among other things.
It’s as simple as saying “F**k it” and leaving the stress and worry in favor of peace, easing the mind and allowing things to be as they are. The reality is that you cannot change the past, and you cannot predict the future to be any certain way 100%. The future is bound to be slightly, or completely, different than you anticipate but the one thing that you can count on is that it will be interesting! Maybe it’s best, then, to just go with the flow to see what comes in the NOW. Maybe it’s best to see all life’s jewels as they come rather than waiting for something else all the time. That something else might never come, and you might miss out on another thing that was right under your nose and disappeared without a moment’s notice. If you don’t stop to smell the roses while they’re there, and you’re too busy collecting as many as possible to have the biggest and best collection, you may not get to ever experience the amazing aroma. You may also not truly notice the beauty before you, until it starts wilting and withering away.